All confidence is lost as She sits in her room waiting to be noticed without getting yelled at of lectured for something she did wrong. Tears fall from her once smiling face as she sits their lonely in the floor waiting for something to happen. Depressed and lonely she waits. She wonderers why people treat her like she's invisible. At school she tries to impress them to make them notice that she's there but fails miserably. They don't notice that the friend that they knew the happy go lucky one has turned into a depressed sad worry about everything girl that just wants good friends that will be there for her when she needs it the most. She sits there wondering " what is wrong with me why does everyone hate me what do I do wrong to make them hate me I always ask them but every time I get the same answer every time "everyone likes you" but I get this feeling of doubt that they don't." The same question runs through her head constantly "Will my friends really be there wh
30 Day Trans Challenge: Day 2
2. How did you choose your name, and what names were you thinking about using and why?
Well I've always liked the name Kyle. Nothing really had me emotionally attached the name- I just have always really liked it.
I knew that I liked it completely when I went to visit my brother Nikolai you see. I took the train to the city to stay 5 days and nobody called me by Kyle. Or even tried to be honest. It was very annoying and I didn't like it one bit.
Anyway, I forgot to mention that I only had told a few people online and my mum who told my dad then told my sister Rosemary. My mum doesn't quite get it but is trying though when I told her she said in these words,
"You'll always be my beautiful little girl."
Which hurt alot for me since, No. I am not a little girl. I am a 14 going on 15 year old Guy. Sure my body says otherwise, but that isn't anyone's business other than my own. You know? Someone's body shouldn't be able to define who a person is.
30 Day Trans Challenge: Day 7
7) Who do you look up to?
There are many people I look up to for different reasons. I look up to my friends who accept me for who I am and have supported me through some really difficult times.
But as far as who do I look up too in the trans Community? Well, I'm so very new to it, that I'm not entirely sure. I mean, the first person who I actually got to talk to online who is a Transguy was Marcus, I found him on his Youtube called Dearkitona. He seemed really cool and he has this timeline that I could relate to so much it made me cry.
Because I'm a baby, shut your mouth.
My sister. She is so incredibly strong and knows what she wants and goes after it. She's always been a smartypants for as long as I can remember- She didn't really go to highschool you see, she went for one year and was too smart for the classes so she went straight to college. I mean, She's only 17 and she has moved out and lives in an apartment, has an awesome job..So someday I want
30 Day Trans Challenge: Day 3-4
3)"Have you ever been outed?"
No not yet, And hopefully not ever. I mean sometimes it's hard to pass for me since I have yet to go shopping for guy clothes let alone a binder. //le sigh
So most of the time I just come off as a tom boy for most. Hopefully that'll get better..
4)"How did your family take it when you came out/ if you're not out, why aren't you?"
Well; after talking it over with a handful of supportive friends over facebook that I know in person and a few online- I told my mum. I started out with asking how she felt when my big brother (I mentioned before) came out to her- stating that he was gay when he was 16. After we talked abit about that she asked me if I liked girls, catching onto what my intentions of the entire conversation was. I then told her that it was abit more than then, alot more than just that.
I told her that I was uncomfortable with my body and that I've been feeling this way for a long while. That I was a f2m Trans. She was a bit confused